Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Just Because You Ignore The Facts, That Doesn't Mean They Stop To Exist

Nothing. It was as if I couldn't feel anything and could barely think. Everything was going wrong. Everything. Was it my mistake for having too much faith in myself? Was it my fault for thinking that I could have actually done well? Everything crashed down on me in the end and I couldn't do anything about it. No matter how much I tried to look on the bright side, it just wouldn't sink in. Dark eyes were burning- not with tears- but with annoyance; how could I? Why did I? I had no answers for any of them. No answers at all.

Right. Back to the reason of why I was actually writing this post. My friend had urged me to post a few of my writings up here. No, not those short stories or articles. Just ramblings or thoughts, you can say. Like short poems, or something of the sort. For starters, I'll just post two of them. We'll see how the rest goes. And , of course, everyone and anyone is free to critize or comment.

► You'd think just because you travel a few miles that nothing would change. That surely turned out to be wrong because everything changed. The people, the scenery, the views, the love, the school, the friendship. Oh, friendship- what's the meaning of it? Is there a depth to it anymore? If you refuse to share your emotions, your experiences and yourself then how can one get closer? Then along comes the other thought- if you didn't want me to get closer, then why did we start in the first place? Perhaps it was my fault for trying in the first place. Perhaps it was my fault for hoping just a bit more. Perhaps it was my fault for wanting to be with you in the first place.

► What if everything you believed got twisted and turned in just one moment? What if everything that you thought was the truth turned out to be nothing but a lie? What if the shoulder that was always there for you to lean against just disappeared? What if you found out that the person who you thought you knew was showing you a different side the whole time? A side that was nonexistant? A side that was nothing but a facade. Turns out that I never knew you after all.


9 comments:

uglyduckling91 said...

:< :< :<

BoogieMonsterMan ^___^ said...

No. It's not wrong of you for having too much faith in yourself. No it's not Karma. It's not where you went wrng. It's about your betterment. It's like what they recite during the school prayers, "Lord, grant us success if success is good for us, for you know what is best for each one of us"

Maybe it wasn't meant for you?
Or maybe, you just screwed up only a little and you actually did well and managed to get all good grades, right?

Ry said...

Dullah: Yes, I know you love me :P
Fie: :S Well, yeah. Taht was my mistake then I suppose. I never have that much faith in myself. I'm the kind to keep a low profile when it comes to things like that. Lawl; of course- good grades aren't meant to be mine ..But that doesn't mean I'm planning to give up. Yet, that is

TehBoogieMonsterMan ^_____^ said...

Ya know, your layout should be for me..It would suit me better...

Holy said...

aww... :(
man.
life sucks because unexpected things happen.
I could totally imagine you being so much happier if you are in still US.
cheer up darling :)
you will find a friend that's the closet and true to you.
:) don't worry.

Ry said...

Arfie:
Bs. It doesn't suit you.

Holy:
Aww Yoshi! I miss you so much :( I wish I was back there too~

rabia said...

really liked this post, the way you wrote is amazing
and you post your articles and stuff here too
would love to read them

rabia said...

see i do comment
love ur titles

Richa said...

Aww Thanks Rubes x)
You guys- all of you-
and your comments really make me want to write more